Day 4 of my reset went well. A 100% vegan day, and it will be this way for the next 17 days. I don’t plan on staying vegan, but it’s part of this program - hehe. It does make me realize how easy being vegetarian/vegan would be for me, though…if I really wanted to eliminate meat (which I don’t).
I am down almost 10 pounds (i’m at 7 pounds) since April 19, which is so exciting. I don’t see it anywhere but I know that it’s progress. I can’t wait to be able to work out again once the reset is over. I’m not allowed to exercise during this time because my body is getting a work out internally. I can definitely feel it, my muscles are incredibly sore like I have actually been working out.
I’m having a really rough time with personal stuff, though. My psychiatrist prescribed me Viibryd…but I can’t take it until the reset is over. I’m so nervous about taking it…just because I get really nervous about taking medication anyway. Ugh, anyway - I hope it works out ok. The Cymbalta seriously made me suicidal and crazy. I’m also hoping these healthy lifestyle changes will help a lot.
Colposcopy Pt. 1
Today was my Colposcopy. I am assuming you are reading this because you searched “Colposcopy” under tags - which means you’re probably about to have one (or you’re one of my followers). I actually did the same exact thing the night before my Colposcopy, and the night before that, and the entire month that I had to wait to have this procedure. I literally googled myself insane about this entire topic.
I had a really hard time falling asleep last night, and even woke up this morning hoping that I could just by-pass it all. The horror stories that I have read over this month has been the worst, ever. Anyyyway…this morning:
The doctor fully explained what my abnormal results were, and what exactly would happen during the procedure. I really love this doctor, she is always so sweet and calm, and she was sensitive to the fact that this is a procedure that I’ve probably been freaking out about for a while. My sweet boyfriend came with me as emotional support, which I highly suggest to anyone that is nervous about getting a Colposcopy! You are allowed to have anyone you want in the room with you, and it does help, the doctor and nurse were more than happy that he was in there - he rubbed my arm and kept me smiling even though I was freaking out on the inside, anticipating each step I had read about.
So the first part is like a Pap-Test - stirrups, speculum, exposure. It’s not anyone’s favorite position to be in - but it was fine.
The second part was the cotton swabs soaked in the vinegar solution applied to the cervix. (used to illuminate any abnormal areas of the cervix) This did not burn or sting like I read about. It just felt kind of cold. The weirdest part was when the cotton balls were taken out, it just felt weird - but not in a bad way.
Third: my doctor took some photos of my cervix through the Colposcope, while periodically asking how I was doing. I was perfectly fine!
Fourth: The biopsies. The part that I was dreading the most. She actually did four different ones. The first two were the “brush” which she put inside of the cervical canal rather than just on the cervix like they do on a regular Pap Test. Didn’t hurt a bit, it just felt like “oh, hey, that’s not supposed to be there but it’s over now.” I just felt more aware of the area, no pain at all.
The part that I feared the most was the actual “clipping” of the cervix. I had 2 different biopsies like that. She had me take a deep breath in, and “clip.” Repeat. Um, I could not have put myself into more of a panic about this than I did….and it was absolutely unnecessary. I don’t like the description that people use by saying “pinching.” Have you ever had an organ pinched? Me neither - so I can’t relate to that description. I would RATHER have a cervical biopsy than get pinched on my arm. The only way that I can relate it to anything is like…skin around your fingernail - if you’ve ever had like skin-build up/callus around your nail or even cuticle, and you go get your nails done (or you do it yourself) and you clip around your fingernail…it DOES NOT hurt at all. In fact, it’s almost a “dull” sensation, because that part of your body really isn’t that sensitive.
That’s not even a good descriptor but all I can say is - for me, it was nothing. I felt absolutely zero pain during the entire procedure, and I’m glad I went. I only took 3 advils before, which doesn’t help with pain at all - it helps with swelling/inflammation. EVERYONE is different, but please know that it is not horrible for everyone.
The doctor then applied silver nitrate to stop the bleeding - I needed a little more attention because I was bleeding a lot - but all of this happened while Kelly Clarkson’s “What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger” played. My boyfriend started laughing, the doctor started laughing, the nurse and I both started laughing. It was so horrible but hilarious.
It’s been an hour since the procedure and I feel fine. I can tell that I had something done today, but I’m not in any way more uncomfortable than mild period cramps.
I hope that this information is useful, whether you’re about to get one, or you may even have to get one in the future. PLEASE get your regular Pap Tests…I always do, and unfortunately I had an abnormal result which has led me to this. I’m just glad I caught this abnormal result sooner than later! Keep in mind, abnormal test results can come and go - because the virus that causes it can lie dormant for a while, and then re-appear. This is why it is so important to have regular check-ups.
The next step is to just wait for my results. I hope and pray that they will come back ok, and that I will just have to repeat my Pap Tests - but on a more frequent basis. I don’t need to be dealing with any kinda cancer yet. <3
He’s fine. I got into such an emotional wreck that I called his work and he answered.
He said thank you for calling so much (in a sweet way). He had to rush to get to work and thats why he didnt call. I started crying like a stupid baby because I was happy he’s ok.
He’s very understanding and I’m glad he’s ok. Relief.
i hate being worried about my man :(
he’s usually very “scheduled” when it comes to calling me before work just to say hi - and he didn’t do that today. i’m worried because he was out at a bar last night (no problem at all), but i think he drank a little more than he usually does when he just casually goes out. his brother (he doesn’t drink) was meeting him up there, which is comforting - but i’m still worried.
i hope he made it to work today. i just wanna hear from my love <3
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